This is soooo weird and strange and i should probably think twice about sharing this with an online community. But its my blog so who cares. Long story short I think I was “dream” visited by a friend of mine, I don’t know the correct terminology for this maybe “dream projection” or “astral projection”. I never got to see their face but its as if my soul and heart recognized that other soul, and now I feel at peace. The dream was short my friend hugged me and then slipped away, i wish i knew for sure who they could be. I know that my heart knows but for the first time its keeping a secret from my mind… As sweet as this experience was Im afraid of it all, scared to fall asleep tonight…
1. What is more difficult for you, looking into someones eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they are telling you how they feel?
Both are a little hard to do but Definitely looking at someones eyes when they are pouring their heart to me.
2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry? Do you still feel the same way?
I don't know what its like to be angry, its not an emotion i learned to have, need to work on that. im sure ive gotten mad about something cant remeber though, i dont hold grudges.
3. You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make ONE phone call. Who do you call? What do you tell them?
I'd call my parents and tell them that they are the world to me.
4. You are at the doctor’s office and he has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? What do you do with your remaining days? Would you be afraid?
id tell my family, wouldn't tell my friends, id do every single thing im afraid of doing. skydiving, bungee jumping, going up to my crush and kissing him, slapping this one girl in the face, make my parents send me to Italy. finally finish writing a book. learn to dance salsa. the list goes on
5. You can have one of the following two things. Which do you choose? Why? Love and Trust.
Tough because whats love without trust and whats trust without love....but I'm going to say i would choose love because maybe we could work on the trust thing if i love you.
6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you take the time to save the dogs life? Why or Why not?
I cant swim, but I would do everything I can to save that dog, screw my boss if he doesn't understand hes not someone i would want to work under anyway.
7. Would you rather be hurt by the one you trust the most or the one you love the most?
hmm, hurt in what way... I think i would rather be hurt by the person i love the most, i think id be more likely to forgive someone i love, but if i trusted you with everything and you break that its going to be a long long time before you gain me back.
8. Your best friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more than just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you (or did you) do/say?
hopefully i have feelings for them too, or else id feel horrible, i don't think i could say no to my best friend id want to give that person a chance even if i didnt really think it would work. i guess i just couldn't see myself with them i would just have to tell them what im thinking knowing me it'd probably ruin the friendship.
9. Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give up one year of yours. Do you do it? Why or Why not?
the last person who died was my Aunt Fransisca she was such a sweet and amazing woman. this is tough because with the sickness she had 1 year would mean 1 more year as a vegetable on a life support machine and i know that's not what she would want. I would give up a year if i knew she could truly enjoy her life and her daughters, but if she would still be alive under the same conditions i wouldn't do it.
10. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?
i would want me as a friend am loyal, trusting, and reliable, their are things about me i wouldn't like in a friend, im extremely moody, dislike to show affection, and do not like clingyness but i think that overall I'm a good enough friend for anybody.
11. Does love = sex?
No one does not really equal the other, although i think that the sex in any love life is important but i don't believe in casual sex with just anyone, you should definitely love and trust the person your sleeping with
12.Your boss tells your coworker that they have to let them go because of work shortage, and they are the newest employee. You have been there much longer. Your coworker has a family to support and no other means of income. Do you go to your boss and offer to leave the company? Why or Why not?
I dont think I would give up my job, because i have my own responsibilities to take care off. id give up my job if it was a reasonable thing for me to do and i had other options. if not id do everything i could for that person, help them with their job search, let them know im there for them, buy groceries, babysit the kids whatever i could do. but life
13.When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you felt regardless of how difficult it was for you to say? Who was it? What did you have to tell the person?
The last person i was in "love/something masquerading as love" with, hurt me more than i have ever been hurt in my entire life, i was definitely not prepared for the emotional damage they left me with, i remember i sat this person down and cried, i made them give me an explanation for everything, it was soooo hard to do, i hate confrontation and making others feel bad, but i stuck up for myself and will always be proud of myself for that.
14. What would be (or what was) harder for you to tell a member of the opposite sex, you love them or that you do not love them back?
Dang it!! these both sucks. Me tell someone i love them highly highly unlikely but then again maybe i haven't ever been in love enough to want to verbally say that to someone. as of right now it'd be easier to say that i do not love someone back i am too afraid to open up to anyone.
15. What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? Why would it be hard to lose?
my car would be hard to give up.... i love it dearly
16. Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them. Who were they to you?
Told my cousin Ina I love her today, shes the most awesome 17 year old i know. id give the world for this girl.
17. If there was one moment and one time in the last month what would you change and why?
hmmm, id change how hard i studied for this one exam!! still upset about that. usually i dont believe in changing the past, everything is perfect and will work out just the way it was intended to work out.
18.Imagine it is a dark night, you are alone, it is raining outside, you hear someone walking around outside your window. WHO do you wish was there with you?
19. Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying? Why or Why not?
Of course!!
21.You are holding onto your grandmother’s hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You have to let one go to save the other. Who do you let fall to their death? What was your rationale for making the decision?
im sorry id let the baby go, i do not know it and have no idea why its with me in the first place. loyalty loyalty loyalty...hope this isn't selfish
22. Are you old fashioned?
With somethings i am, im mostly not though.
23. When was the last time you were nice to someone and did NOT expect anything in return for it?
probably today, i always try to treat everyone nicely, i don't think i ever do it because i want something from them.
24.Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a broken heart, or never loved at all? Why?
well ive gotten my heart broken before and it sucks, Ive vowed to never ever let someone do that to me again. i learned so much about myself through the experience but i really cannot imagine going through what i went through again, very dark time in my life and im happy to have it behind me. therefore i rather not love at all!!!
25.If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be?
id wish for success
This is why I have such a strong connection with nature.
without this connection you are functioning with a Eurocentric mind.
(Source: yeah-it-makes-me-wonder)
